(An old fear)
I have to pick between spending my brother's last months together (last year of high school), and using my opportunity as a fresh grad to move to a new and exciting location.
(An old fear)
I have to grow out my hair and style it conventionally in order to be taken seriously.
(An old fear)
I can't get any big tattoos until I have established myself as a business professional. If I get my forearm tat it will look cringy and impulsive.
(An old fear)
There aren't any other ways to secure a job outside of the service industry besides corporate internship/jobs.
10.21.25
If I live with E* soon, I would have to eat with the other people in the house and compromise on my ingredients. Alternatively, everyone IS expected to fend for themselves but there's no room/time to do that effectively.
10.21.25
It won't ever make sense for just us to live together (other people to consider like sibs, B*).
10.21.25
I'll never be ready/in the position to join a band. It'll be a long time before I get to perform in any capacity.
10.29.25
Home is so much work emotionally and I won't be happy if I live there after college or get a job with IDLA. Likewise I love the fam a lot and would like to take advantage of that while I can.
[somewhere inbetween]
I won't be able to travel or do fun things unless I get a corporate office job. That's the only way to make enough money soon to do good things and get the connections needed to make those things happen.
11.3.25
these feelings won't ever stop or be in my control and life will always be a strugglebus climb with no end or sense in sight (hormone/stress/etc induced methinks)
11.3.25
I can't be pretty and strong and masculine and feminine and taken seriously
11.3.25
I'll never feel old [enough]
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